Bigman: Or The Unexpected Virtue of Epithets

Bigman: Or The Unexpected Virtue of Epithets

This is Ryan’s second nomination and his first win in the category of “Best First Blog Post In, Like, The History of Blog Posts”.

Well here it is, my very first blog post.  I’m all grown up now…and at the young age of 36 no less.  Well maybe I’m not all the way grown up yet but I am certainly a “grown ass man” (pardon my french).

You can read a little bit more about me on my “Hello” page but long story short: I am a big man.  By this I mean that I am fat.  When I moved to Oakland in 2008 I was about 250 pounds, I ballooned up to about 270 then down to 240 and ultimately – at the height of my darkest hour of depression – I hit 290.  That’s when I decided it was time to take a hold of my life and focus on my health.  With this blog,  I aim to share my journey towards a healthy lifestyle with you and, if I’m lucky, provide you with a little information and a little inspiration to help you to health as well.  I will be posting videos, recipes, facts, photographs and downright witty prose as I set out to transform my life and my waistline.  I hope you will join me in my journey.

The Recipe Du Jour

“Beanwah Burgers” | Black Bean & Quinoa Veggie Patties

The Big Man

After living in Oakland for a while I began to notice that I had taken on a moniker.  It was usually used by the regulars.  The myriad of characters that either lived, hustled, or loitered on the streets just outside my little apartment on the southern border of the Temescal neighborhood.  They called me “Big Man”.

At first, when I was still a bit delusional about my ever-growing waistline, the name didn’t really sink in.  I never stopped to think about why I was Big Man.  Then one day it hit me: I wasn’t Big Man, because I looked strong or tough; I wasn’t Big Man because I was tall – I’m not tall; I wasn’t Big Man because I had a wide build; I was Big Man because of my belly; because of the girth, my god the girth!  That was a bit of a gut check for me.  I mean I knew I was overweight but I had developed this defense mechanism against the terrors of low self-esteem.  I walked around all day sucking my belly in and pretending my physique was better than it actually was.  It’s a very strange contradiction; I knew I was obese but I ignored it, because to face it was a truly awful prospect.

The more my Telegraph street tag got thrown around, the more it was pounded home: I am Big Man.  I am fat man.  I am gross.  I was committing suicide by diet.  Self-harm through nutritional neglect.  During my last year in Oakland my opinion of myself was about as high as a headstone.  I was digging my own grave with each pizza I pounded; with each order of dry fried ribs or each trip to the Carl’s Junior on the corner.

DID YOU KNOW?  On a recent list of The Top 30 Worst Foods in America the folks over at foodmatters.tv ranked a particular combo meal from Carl’s Junior at #1! That’s the worst meal in America folks.  Granted, there are a lot of these lists out there but when a meal weighs in at over 1800 calories with a whopping 92 grams of fat then it certainly deserves to be at the top of somebody’s scathing indictment of fast food in America.  And guess how much sodium it has?  150% of the daily recommended sodium intake in one meal! (Although the jury ist actually still out on sodium intake. More on that here.)  And that’s not the only “Carl’s Junk” that graces their menu, Carl’s Junior has some of the highest calorie combo meals amongst all the fast food giants. 

The physical effects of my poor diet and sedentary lifestyle were becoming more noticeable: dry, red, flaky skin in my t-zone. (Yes I just used the term t-zone. No I do not have a problem with “Metrosexuals” 🙂 ), very low energy, back pain, worsened allergies, poor digestion…and just an all around unhealthy feeling.  The interesting thing about the “unhealthy feeling” is that it sort of creeps up on you.  It is insidious in its tendency to blend in with your life.  You get used to it.  You start to accept that you just don’t have any energy…ever.  You start to adjust to the fact that you have to roll over like a beached whale just to get out of bed.  You don’t realize that you have slowly been tweaking the way you bend over to tie your shoes because your beast of a belly no longer allows you to tie your shoes like yo momma taught you. You’ve got to do this awkward sideways bend and sort of tie your shoes from the side.  (If you have a belly you know what I’m talking about. Pregnant ladies, can I get a “what! what!”? Fat people can I get a “shut the f@%k up”?)

I was lucky; eventually I snapped to and realized that if I did not make a change in my life then I was going to wither away in that smoke-stained room.  I was literally scared of dying in my room and rotting in there until someone finally decided to breach the walls of the “Big Man Cave”.  Forget about myself, I couldn’t do that to my Mother!

So here we are.  I’m almost 30 “el-bee’s” down from those two-hundred-ninety-peak-of-depression pounds and I have officially joined a local weight-loss contest here in my new home town of Apple Valley.  I am quite literally “in it to win it” and I’m starting with a bunch of beans.

The Recipe | Beanwah Burgers

The Gear

  • A Food Processor (very helpful but not entirely necessary)
  • A Big Ole Bowl
  • A Sheet Pan
  • Parchment Paper
  • A Pan / A Knife / An Oven
  • Hands (also helpful but not entirely necessary)

What’s In It?

  • 2 Cups Raw Black Beans (Soaked & boiled, cooking tips below)
  • 6 Medium (7”) Carrots (Minced or Pulsed)
  • 1 Cup Yellow Onion (Minced)
  • 1 Cup White or Yellow Corn (Chopped or Pulsed)
  • 4 Cloves Garlic (Minced)
  • 9 Mini Sweet Peppers (Diced)
  • 1 Cup Pumpkin Seeds (Roasted & Chopped)
  • 3 Cups Cooked Quinoa (Here’s some tips on Quinoa cooking)
  • 1/2 Cup Feta or Cotija Cheese (crumbled fine or pulsed)
  • 1/2 Cup Bread Crumbs
  • 1/4 Cup Grated Parmesan
  • 2 Large Eggs
  • 2-3 Tblsp Olive Oil
  • Spices: 1/2 tsp Salt / 1 tsp Black Pepper / 1 tsp Chipotle Powder / 1 tsp Ground Oregano / 1 tsp Ground Cumin

Now What?

Preheat your oven to 350°.  Lay cooked beans onto a single layer on a rimmed baking sheet and bake for about 20 minutes.  Just so they start to get dry and crackly (a very technical culinary term).  While your beans are getting toasty you can saute your veggies over a medium-high heat.

Pulse the carrots in a food processor about 8-10 times then add the corn and pulse a few more times. Add the onions and peppers and saute for about 2 minutes.  Add the pulsed carrot/corn mixture to the pan along with the garlic, and spices and stir well, sauteing for another 3-5 minutes so the spices can warm up a bit and get all snuggly with the veggies.

After the toasty beans have cooled down a bit add them to a large bowl along with the Quinoa, Seeds – heck just through everything in the bowl together.  (Make sure nothing is too hot though because you don’t want to scramble them eggs.)

Mix everything together with your hands making sure to incorporate the eggs and breadcrumbs throughout.  Everything should start to come together nicely so you can form patties (kind of like a ground beef).   If it’s too gooey or too dry just add more bread crumbs or liquid accordingly. (You can use the liquid you used to cook the beans in if you want or some vegetable stock would be delicious too!)

Nick Knack Patty Whack

To make the patties I like to use a plastic lid like the ones from a tub of salsa or cottage cheese (about 4.5″ in diameter).  Wrap the lid in plastic wrap and begin pressing the Beanwah mixture into the lid so it fills it up and is just overflowing a bit. Then you can pop it out of the lid and mold it to your desired thickness and roundness. (This recipe yields about 12 patties because mine end up being pretty big, like a 1/3 pound burger, but you can make yours any size you like)

Everybody Chill

Now is the time to refrigerate or freeze your patties.  Either way you should let the burgers cool down and set up before throwing them on the grill or back in your pan.  To freeze them put them on a parchment lined baking sheet and toss them in the freezer for a quick cold blast (30 – 60 minutes) kind of like this.  Once they’ve got a solid chill, pack them up in a heavy-duty plastic bag with a piece of parchment between each patty.  Those buggers can stay in there for 3 months (maybe longer) just waiting for you to indulge in them.  Mmmmmmm….Beeeeeaaannwaahhhh. Refrigeration can be done in patty form or in the bowl but you should use em up within about 3-4 days.

Put Some Heat on Em

These burgers need a nice medium heat so they will cook through and not get to crusty on the outside. Nobody likes a crusty old son-of-a…Oh…sorry, got a little carried away there.  Brush them with oil, put them on the grill (about 6 minutes per side; cooking time depends on thickness) but keep an eye on them, and you might even want to baste them from time to time so they don’t get too dry.  They can also be heated on the stove-top with a little oil in a preheated pan.

Serve Em Up

Eat them how you want to eat them.  Personally I think they are best with all the classic burger veggies plus some avocado and some Chipotle mayo.  It’s also pretty difficult to go wrong by adding bacon or cheese but, you know, this blog is supposed to be about weight loss and fitness, and bacon and cheese tend to gang up and pick on health & fitness like the merciless, delicious bullies that they are.  But I’m not too big on food guilt.  Eat want you want, just make sure you eat nutrient dense, whole foods, lots of veggies and get plenty of exercise (and nothing in excess of course).  That’s the ticket if you ask me!  We’ll see how it works out for me.

Soak Them Puppies

You can certainly use canned black beans for this recipe (rinsed and drained), but why would you do that when you can make them from scratch!  Just remove any stones from your beans give them a quick rinse and soak them over night (6 hours minimum).  Then dump that soaking water into one of your plants and give them beans a quick shower.  Back in the pot they go with about an inch or two of water to spare.  You can go with plain, boiled, black beans or you can add a flavor profile of your choosing by adding a bouquet garni or a sachet.  For this recipe I added 1/4 of a large yellow onion, 3 or 4 crushed garlic cloves, two bay leaves, oregano leaves, black peppercorns, coriander seeds and cumin seeds (about 1/2 tsp – 1 tsp of each).  Roll it all up in some cheesecloth and toss it in the water. Bring to a boil then reduce to a simmer with the lid cracked.  Check them for “doneness” at about 45 minutes but they could take over an hour (this is due to “sciency” stuff like barometric pressure and elevation and junk). You want them to have a little bit of texture to them, all mush is all bad. (You can still use them if they’re mushy but it may change your consistency a bit so I guess it’s not ALLLLL bad.)  Once they have reached the peak of beandom just drain them and you’re done.  You now have black beans that you can smash, fry, and re-fry, stuff into burros, make burgers from, pop into your mouth or throw at people. (TIP!! – Save your bean water for making a soup or a delicious black bean sauce. But beware, bean water can be farty.)

Well that’s it for this, the very first, Enliven Guy blog post.  I hope it has been enjoyable.  I encourage you to like it, share it, comment on it or whatever other crazy internet thing those whippersnappers can do with it these days. You can follow me on YouTube as well, if you are so inclined. As of right now the first video isn’t up yet. I’m  working on it though.  But hey, if you want to support my journey to health then please subscribe to my channel.  Thank you kindly. 🙂

Stay tuned for my next article: “The Belly Suck” coming to an interwebs near you.

Good health and good vibes to you all!  Thanks for reading.

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7 thoughts on “Bigman: Or The Unexpected Virtue of Epithets

  1. Big man….. I actually liked this.. I find alot of times it is hard for people like my self to relate to “healthy food” writers… As a chef I have struggled with my weight as the fatty rich foods have seemed to be ….. more…. delicious or palatable! !! At my heaviest I was 295 and and now down much less but am aiming for around 210 by my wedding date… On another note I thought the way you broke apart your recipes with fun notes like with .. let em chill – dont wana scramble them eggs!…. and talking through the recipe rather than adding out ingredients and steps like a standard recipe makes it more accessible to people… “toasty beans” stands out as a very good descriptive.. big fan here.. I also liked how you described the number of pulses instead of the grain like consistency of the carrots with the food processor

    Way to go cuz!

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    1. Thanks Alex! I know exactly what you mean about the love-hate relationship between the rich, fatty, foods. I’m actually planning on talking about that in one of my future posts so stay tuned and weigh in if you can. Hey remember when we worked the line at “The Bird”? You were just a baby chef then! 😛 By the way people – Alex has far surpassed me in culinary accomplishments so listen to what he has to say, he got game!

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  2. Wrestling and taking the demons and sabotage guerrillas of a healthy self to the mat has to be the biggest battle for all mortals. I am proud of you son, the virtue of raw honesty is the one I always wished for you. You have a legion of support here, and hanging out with a few Marines can’t hurt either! Love, Dad

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  3. I am blown away by this. Your articulation of the nature of depression (to hold back and shove down), and its direct correlation to eating habits is not only very clear and potent, but you are being so courageously vulnerable by sharing your personal experience. And then we get food facts, and a healthy recipe from the same post?! The gifts, my god, the gifts! Thank you for this. I guarantee you’ll be a resource to many.

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    1. What a post – I laughed, I cried, I hurled. Ok, I didn’t hurl, but I did Google ‘t zone’. Excellent work, Ry. As someone who has for many years watched my own family deal with depression and obesity, this post really hit home. Beautifully written, heartwrenchingly honest and fun/funny by equal measure, I look forward to more and hope you will keep writing from your heart. It’s tough to let it all hang out and let people to judge you at your most vulnerable, but people really dig it when you speak from a place of complete honesty and touch on subjects that many of us struggle with, or watch our loved ones struggle with. Gonna show this to as many people as I can…

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  4. Keep up the great work man. Really enjoyed your writing. It made me laugh, hungry at times, and feel something… Something in my heart I think they call them feelings.

    Looking forward to the next post.

    -Andrew

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  5. Wow. Your honesty blew me away. So proud of you and your decisions to lead a better life. You are an inspiration to all. I know you will meet all your personal goals. Looking forward to continued success and reading all about each step it will take. Thinking of you during this journey! Peace.

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